I started writing this blog 5 weeks ago and this is is why it is only now posted.
I simply cannot be the only person who feels like they never stop. I am constantly going here or there. Fielding phone calls and scheduling appointments. Taking kids to this or that. Playing chauffeur certain days of the week for my 84 year old grandmother and mother, a stroke victim. The old lady’s usual of getting groceries, going to doctor appointments, picking up meds from the pharmacy.
When I have an occasional morning free I have my water aerobics class, that I miss more often than I care to. That class is one thing that makes me feel good and helps with my stamina. Wednesdays are the church’s chancel choir practice. Weekends are full of teaching Sunday School and traveling to visit various family members who live across the state. My eldest has early morning jazz band rehearsals 3 days a week. There are all of the school activities my boys have throughout the year. There is after school homework and projects to be done. Dishes, laundry, bill paying, budgeting, etc. etc. etc.
There are so many things I want to do but never seem to get to do. I always feel like I’m being pulled into doing one more thing after another. For example…I have this dress I started making 5 weeks ago that is nearly done but has been waiting for 3 1/2 weeks just for the zipper to be put in for completion. I wanted to wear it for Easter but as things usually go there was no time or energy left to get it done. During that time leading up to Easter I had to make pinatas for the Easter egg hunt at church. I was also asked to fill in for a dear lady who was ill for the church choir. That meant Wednesday evening rehearsals to do a cantata for every Sunday service for the month as well as Good Friday.
There is the projects around the house-repairs, exterior painting, yard work, etc. I have been painting the window trim on the house a couple at a time because there is no way to do them all at once and they still need their second coat. I have been earnestly planning to finish the kitchen remodel job started two years ago, but the crown molding has yet to be put up. I have the moulding and my measurements but haven’t seemed to have the time to cut it and attach it.
It just seems as if there is simply too much to do and not enough time to do it. Then after you do the things that you cannot neglect, you are so tired there is nothing left for the rest of it. It cannot be right that after a day of running errands, etc. and making supper for your family there is nothing left of ‘you’. The you that wants to talk with them about their day or crawl on the floor to do puzzles. The you that wants to talk with your handsome husband about the day you had. Sometimes even sitting up to watch a movie with your family is beyond you. Often times I am so beat that I can hardly hold my head up.
I know other people have this same issue, but (and I may be wrong) with Multiple Sclerosis it seems like everything is a uphill battle with overwhelming exhaustion. Walking through the store is like trudging through knee deep mud, every step is an exertion. I wake up in the morning with fatigue even after a full night’s rest but unfortunately it doesn’t get better through the day. Copious amounts of coffee and cocktails of prescriptions the doctor gives don’t make much of a difference.
I guess what this rambling all boils down to is this…
…….I NEED A VACATION FROM MYSELF OR A MAGIC WAND!